Alas it was not to be!

So just in case you were wondering about my last IVF cycle, we were pregnant and now we're not. Oh well. Life goes on. I'm thankful for my little June-bear. 

 

 

In other news I applied for a job earlier this year and am hopeful for a call back in May. I think I'd really like this job. Hopefully the individuals doing the security screening on me didn't find my blog and read my last post and say oh she's knocked up and disqualify me because I'm not. Yes my body hates me. 

I am reading The Storied Life of A.J.Fikry and oh my! It is so good. I love it. At first I was thinking why did I pay $19.95 in the bookstore to buy it. It was one of those I'm in a bookstore I need to buy a book purchases. But I am so glad I did. 

Ugh the library is trying to be political and cut back on their services to garner more funding. Now I can no longer order books from other libraries in our library system. 

I read 12 books in March!! 12 books! Craziness. Granted 5 of those were young adult novels and read basically in one day each so technically I read 7 which is still amazing and ridiculous. I'll write a post in the next day or so about all I've been reading. 

I've decided these are my colours. There is no test I took, but I love them so they are. I've decided. I plan to have this laminated and keep it in my wallet so that the next time I go shopping I will not come home with an orange shirt and hate it and never wear it. Oh and cognac only for shoes or boots and accessories like purses or belts. I've bought a pair of pants this colour once and trust me, horrible.

 

Oh dear I just realized I forgot the last pan of cookies in the oven, even though I turned off the oven. They are officially dried out and will need to be dunked in a cup of tea to be salvageable.

I have succumbed to my vices and have returned to drinking coffee. 

Tears

 Tonight is the eve of our beta test to find out if there is any HCG coursing through my veins from our IVF treatment earlier this month. There isn't. I tested several times already with home pregnancy tests. I'm that kind of girl. I can't wait the two weeks to find out. Each time hope does a little skip and dance. Maybe, just maybe, but no. Even so I have continued to take the medication that would support a pregnancy until the beta confirms what I know. 

I am heartbroken. 

Sad. 

Tears fall for one that will never be. 

Today my heart is heavy. I wish it were not so. I wish this story had a different ending. 

"Occasionally, weep deeply over the life you hoped would be. Grieve the losses. Then wash your face. Trust God. And embrace the life you have." -John Piper

 

2nd FET Cycle

So this happened...

 

Hopefully in two weeks we find out we are pregnant. 

I have the flu along with L & J. Only they have antibiotics & are taking Advil. Me, I'm just miserable. 

I had wanted to recount my entire FET cycle; these last two months feel like a blur. I won't regale you with all the fertility drugs I have taken. Last week I flew with J early one morning to one of my appointments and was home again that evening. That was the longest day ever. My brother met me at the clinic and helped out with J while I had my appointment. After we went for a late breakfast. Then he drove us to the airport. J and I hung out at the airport for the better part of the afternoon. Spending any longer than an hour in an airport with an 11 month old is taxing. Am I ready for a second baby? 

 

This week we drove to our appointment. L took some time off work. It is approximately a 7 hour drive one way if one did not have to stop for breaks & diaper changes & food. We stopped half way at my inlaws home. They are in Mexico for the winter so it was strange staying in their home without them there. We mostly just stayed in while there as L was really not feeling well then. Then onto Calgary where we did a little Christmas shopping and stayed at a hotel near the fertility clinic. 

 

It was really cold on our journey. The weather dipped to -21 degrees Celcius. 

We are so glad to be home now. 

Keep us in your prayers for hopefully our next pregnancy. 

My Greatest Adventure

Five years of waiting, wondering, praying, doctor's appointments, fertility specialists, blood draws, internal ultrasounds, needles, medication, everything that brought me my beautiful J, was worth it. 

We love her. She is such a delight & joy in our lives. 

While I wouldn't wish infertility treatment on anyone God must have known I'd find it fascinating. 

That little thawed embryo in the centre was once a growing follie monitored daily, then one of twenty eggs, then one of fifteen that matured & fertilized by ICSI, then one of six that made it to day five blastocyst, then frozen and several months later thawed and implanted. The top right picture shows where that little embryo was implanted. Even with several bumps in the road including one weeks of bleeding while traveling internationally, a blood clot that required injections of lovenox, gestational diabetes, and low amniotic fluid this beautiful baby was a survivor. 

I can only thank God and all the many people who prayed for me on this incredible adventure. 

And eeek now we are embarking on round three. (Our first round of IVF was a bust.) We received news this week after all the preliminary tests have again been updated that the IVF intake nurse would be calling us within the next week for our next FET (frozen embryo transfer) dates. Here's to hoping & praying for a little brother or sister for J in 2017! 

Baby #2

 

Plans are underway for Baby #2... 

...if any of you are ever reading my blog wondering if you should consider IVF...my advice is to start now because it is never as straightforward as you may expect and there are always a few delays & unexpected loops ahead...but it is so worth it! 

We actually started a few months back already contacting the clinic. We knew it would take a long time so we decided to get the process started. Baby J is almost seven months now, but I have come to learn that it will take several months before another FET (frozen embryo transfer) cycle is offered so in all likelihood baby J will be a year old or older before we are pregnant with our second. We would like to have our littles close in age & because I am already 38 it would be prudent to have a second before I get much older.

Because it has been a year since we last were at the clinic we were informed we needed a new doctor's referral. So after making that appointment we sent in that information and waited. We then received a call & letter for our doctor with next steps. The next steps include the pre-screening investigation tests to be completed. These include a pelvic ultrasound with antral follicle count which can be completed mid cycle & the HSG or Hysterosalpinogram which needs to be completed between days 7-10 of your cycle. It's all complicated with scheduling & knowing when Aunt Flow intends to show up, especially since I have PCOS my cycles are rarely regular.

I've had the pelvic ultrasound completed. And was to have the HSG completed but was to call in on day 1 of my cycle to schedule it, except the radiology technician is away on holidays for those days, and as I live in a small city on the Prairies, there is only one individual who is able to perform this procedure in my community. So I have another month to wait.

Finally after all these tests are completed we will be offered treatment approximately 1-3 months after we have been placed on the active waiting list. Luckily we are on the active waiting list as I have been a previous patient of the clinic. 

We're Pregnant!!

Eeek! I couldn't be more excited! And nervous! And is this too good to be true?

Okay here's my crazy excited face. The above one is far too calm happy.

So I've been sitting on this for a week. I know how is that possible? I can't keep a secret at all. My first test I took at 6dpt in the evening because I thought it was likely too early to test and if it was negative there was still hope, but if it's positive how exciting would that be! L had went to work. The pharmacy is maybe 30 feet from my front door. It was inevitable. 

What if? 

This is what I saw..

Thank you Jesus!!

I waited a few days afterwards to take a second and third. Is this for real?

I told L in the morning after he worked the night shift. He had no idea what the ClearBlue HPT was and said what is this? L isn't one for surprises so I didn't plan a big reveal. He was excited nevertheless asking how am I supposed to sleep now! 

I'm terrified of losing this pregnancy. I have to convince myself not to panic on a regular basis. I have all these odd jabs, pains, sensations and to add to that secretions from the vaginal prometrium. It's enough to do me in most days. To say I'm laying low is an understatement and I'm so happy I don't have to be leading school tours of the museum or art gallery at this time. I can put my feet up at any time and take a nap. I think infertility has made me much more willing to say I'm pregnant so early, to celebrate this achievement. To bask in it. I recognize that I am not out of the woods as I am only at week 5 technically. But hey! I've been on this journey almost five years. 

On Thursday I was up by six and the first one to the diagnostic lab and the first one poked with a needle. I asked when we would find out the results and the nurse was not very sympathetic. She thought if I was lucky maybe the lab work would reach Calgary by Friday afternoon. But then L and I were driving and I saw the tell tale numbers of the Regional Fertility Program light up on my phone. Hello? Is this Rhonda? Yes. This is Dr. Fong's office. We have some good news for you!
Your pregnant!!

A big grin broke out on my face. Joy! I remembered in my excitement to ask a few questions including my HCG numbers. She said she would send a letter to my local doctor and I would follow up with him. 

She said we do not have a follow up HCG test to take. I was a little surprised as I would have been interested to see those numbers change. But it's ok. 

My next appointment is my seven week ultrasound at the end of this month. I am to continue prometrium and estrace until week 10. 

I was early on my previous calculated due date. It is January 11th.

We beat infertility! Yay! 

Two Week Wait

I find these cynical cards funny sometimes. There are a number of IVF and infertility ones that are dead on but some can also bite. Here are some fitting two week wait cards I found. 

The two week wait is always so long but really in the grand scheme of this inherity journey a drop in a bucket. The best part of the two week wait is thinking can this be? The worst part is not feeling any symptoms or having fear grip you and thinking what will we do if this does not work out. A verse I clung to during this two week wait was, "For God has not given you a spirit of fear but of power, and of love, and a strong mind." I'm not sure where it is found or if that is the accurate version because I learned it years ago and it came to mind one day when I went to the bathroom and discovered blood on the tissue. I immediately took another 100 mg of progesterone and decided to put my feet up, rest, and meditate on that verse. No more two hour walks scheduled. A nap instead. I am taking a perscription of 6 mg of estrace and 600 mg progesterone daily, along with 81 mg of aspirin, a prenatal vitamin (with 1000 mg of folic acid) and also metformin. Likely what I did was a knee jerk reaction as my doctor did say it is common for IVF patients to have bleeding. It cleared up shortly afterwards. I still get a little nervous every time I go to the bathroom but I'm trying to be confident and hopeful. 

Tomorrow is my first beta test! Yay!! I hope for a viable pregnancy. The diagnostic laboratory opens at 7 am. Then we plan to go out for breakfast. I likely won't receive the results back until Friday. Last time it was several days. I am hoping for good news. 

Check back by the weekend for an update.

FET Transfer

On Friday this precious one was transferred into my uterus. The embryologist gave me a photo before. I put the photo up on my fridge as soon as I got home.

 

He asked if I had any questions and because my legs were up in stirrups and there was also a doctor and a nurse in the room and my bladder was full for the ultrasound my mind was blank to ask deep thought out questions. So all I know is that it looks a little squishy because it just was thawed and that they only thawed one embryo. We have 5 remaining frozen.

I thought originally of staying in Calgary and watching movies in a hotel bed ordering room service and being blissfully lazy, but L just finished night shifts and was home after a week away so I drove the three hours home. We went out for Vietnamese after to celebrate and went for a walk afterwards.

Saturday I ran errands, did laundry, made cookies, assembled all my travel receipts from medical appointments for my income tax, and went out with Logan's parents and family in from out of town. Then we played board games for several hours afterwards. So I may have overdone it the last two days. 

Its hard to say what to do afterwards, some say to be on bed rest for two days and others say to continue on with their normal life. I did the normal life this time. I hope this little one sticks around.

Today I decided to put my feet up however as it is Sunday and read, watch videos and eat pineapple cores. I'm not sure pineapple cores work for implantation but hey there's no harm in trying and I like pineapple. L is studying for an important presentation at work where if he presents this next weekend and is graded well will get a raise! Yay!

Let's Read Non-Fiction: "Unexpected" Infertility, Miscarriage and IVF Failure Explained

When a thing was new people said it was not true. Later, when the truth became obvious, people said it was not important. When its importance could not be denied, people said it was not new. William James, 19th century philosopher

Is Your Body Baby Friendly? I just finished this medical text by Dr. Alan E. Beers. This was going to be my January Read of 500 pages but I inadvertently thought it had 500 pages when I picked it out only to find one third of the text were notes or references to medical journals and studies. So I skipped ahead and this has become my April non-fiction selection in February. Also I wanted to read this text of immune tests and treatments prior to my appointment with Dr. Foong later this week where she will explain what may have gone wrong and hopefully what we can do next time to improve.

I was surprised after our textbook quality embryos, hope from doctors for a successful cycle and gleeful nurses to have a failed IVF cycle. Likely these tests or treatments recommended by Dr. Beers will not be available at the Regional Fertility Program in Calgary.  Immunological testing has not yet been entirely accepted by the medical IVF community. There have not been enough blind studies completed with placebo subjects despite the success rates of 85% Dr. Beers has achieved with his patients who come to him after several failed IVF or miscarriages.

"There is an anecdote about an engineer who visited a factory to view a marvellous new machine churning out widgets.  He turned to his host and said, " I see it works in practice, but does it work in theory?""

We fixed the lack of ovulation with IVF now to fix the implantation issue and/or ability to maintain a pregnancy. This may not be easy.

I wonder if I have one or more of the categorical immune issues identified by Dr. Alan E. Beers.

There are five categories.

• Category 1: Tissue Type Compatibility
• Category 2: Blood Clotting Defects
• Category 3: Immunity to Pregnancy
• Category 4: Antibodies to Sperm
• Category 5 A: Natural Killer Cells
• Category 5 B: Antibodies to Hormones and Neurotransmitters

I wonder if I have category 2 as my father also has blood clotting issues and several members of my father's family take blood thinning medications. I also have a clotty cycle. I was prescribed baby aspirin in my past cycle and I think that may have helped along with acupuncture. It is likely I also have category 5 issues as Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome is discussed within this section. It has been confirmed by several doctors that I have PCOS and I have also seen it on the ultrasound monitor. 

"Women with polycystic ovarian disease and ovarian cysts have a higher incidence of autoimmunity of the type that leads to insulin resistance (high fasting free insulin levels), autoimmune thyroditis and recurrent pregnancy losses.

Elevated levels of insulin lead to poor endometrial development , which can prevent the embryo from implanting. Other fertility problems can manifest themselves as failure to ovulate, irregular periods and poor egg/embryo quality. 

Furthermore, an excess of insulin can interfere with normal blood clotting balance, leading to restricted uterine blood flow. It also reduces glycodelin output. Glycodelin (also known as placental protein 14" or PP14) is an immunosuppressive protein found in the uterine lining with inhibits NK and T cell activity. Therefore, low levels of this key protein can increase the chance of miscarriage. For women with untreated PCOS, these category 2 immune problems combine with those of Category 5, can increase the risk of miscarriage between 30% and 50% during the first trimester. "

We were told we had good endometrial lining likely due to the doctors being able to control my hormone levels of estrogen, progesterone and testosterone. During the 2 week wait I was not monitored but I was taking progesterone supplements orally. So I am curious to learn what Dr. Foong suggests may have gone wrong.

I think I will also ask to go back on Metformin. I am not looking forward to the side effects again but think it is probably best to try to get my PCOS under control even if I never am able to carry a baby to term to mitigate against stroke, heart attack, diabetes, and weight gain.

"The most effective treatment for PCOS is metformin hydrochloride, the same drug that is used to treat type 2 diabetes. Metformin increases the body's sensitivity to insulin and allows it to be used more efficiently. It also reduces the amount of glucose produced by the liver, and the amount of glucose absorbed by food from the stomach. By controlling levels of insulin, metformin helps to elevate levels of glycodelin, which regulates the NK cells, thereby lessening the risk of immune mediated infertility and miscarriage. Metformin can even correct blood clotting problems to a degree."

I was initially perscribed Metformin when the doctor suspected I might have PCOS when my pap tests came back with abnormal cells in 2010.  Instead at the time we were focused on determining if I had cervical cancer and so I did not think at the time, once the tests finally came back normal from the cancer board after several painful laporoscopy and biopsies, to ask to continue metformin for infertility. And as such we had given up after my first miscarriage on even conceiving and were focused on adoption.

I did not know much about metformin or PCOS then and I think was initially in denial that I even had PCOS and did not even want to take metformin because somehow in my head I equated that with diabetes. I thought I could manage my weight and insulin levels with diet and exercise. Obviously I am not doing the greatest with that as I am not as diligent as I once was with monitoring my insulin levels. In my twenties I was aware I had some issues with insulin as I used to have a strict diet of 21 grams of protein, 7-9 of fat, 28 grams of carbohydrates for every meal along with two snack of 3 fat, 7 protein and 9 carbohydrates daily. Then it was to lose weight and was the only method I found successful to lose weight. When I was successful in organising my food intake I was at my lowest adult weight of 122 lbs.  Impossible to maintain on an ongoing basis if you have family or friends or stress.

But perhaps with a return to metformin, a change in my lifestyle and a renewed focus I can lose some weight. I am currently at my heaviest at 170 lbs. I have been here several times before and this is generally my ceiling before I kick it into high gear and revisit exercising and cutting out sugar in earnest. I have to wise up to the fact that PCOS is not only causing me infertility it could in fact shorten my life. It is a full time job really managing one's insulin levels.

And so my challenge is this. Hopefully metformin, cutting out sugar, exercising, taking baby aspirin daily along with a multivitamin with folic acid, reducing stress, losing weight, getting daily vitamin D and cutting my favourite vice- coffee will improve my chances for a successful IVF cycle. If not then there is always the Alan E. Beers Center in California. The Centre for Reproductive Immunology and Genetics.

I checked out the website where the laboratory testing is done.

Testing is done if there is:

(a) two miscarriages or two IVF failures after age 35 or three miscarriages or IVF failure before age 35,
(b) poor egg production from a stimulated cycle (less than 6 eggs),
(c) blighted eggs,
(d) idiopathic (unknown cause) infertility,
(e) previous immune problems (ANA positive, rheumatoid arthritis, and/or lupus),
(f) previous pregnancies that have shown retarded fetal growth, and
(g) one living child and repeat miscarriages while attempting to have a second child.



Half of the battle will be finding a doctor in Canada who will agree to be a collaborating doctor and support the protocols recommended. I learned on the Reproductive Immunology Support group that possibly there is a doctor at the Victoria clinic and also in Ontario or there is also a clinic in Las Vegas that takes Canadian patients. The testing is $1200. The treatment costs identified depend on the testing results. Some could be expensive as they may be required several times during the course of a pregnancy.

I am hopeful for a successful FET cycle but I am also reserved.

Here's to hope. Again.

I hate losing the innocent joy that comes with infertility. The innocent joy when we first thought we would like to think about having children and were just having fun trying, then our first chlomid cycle which ended in miscarriage which led to several other chlomid cyles without positive pregnancy tests. Then when we first fell on adoption and thought this would be the answer to our infertility and thought we would have a healthy baby within two years. Then finally our first IVF cycles. Holding that picture with the perfect blastocyst I felt so much joy.

Here's to joy. Again.

I wish the universe recognized our efforts.  My friend S shared with me this past fall when I was picking up medication to begin my IVF cycle that she and her husband were excited to try to have a baby. Then after my unsuccessful IVF cycle we met again for lunch and she shared with me that they had a miscarriage. Just this past week L and I went over to play some games and were enveloped in their joy that they were pregnant and due in August on their first try after their miscarriage. I was surprised and happy for them but that evening tears slipped from my eyes and I wondered when me? will it ever be me? how is this fair? where is there justice God? are you not compassionate? merciful? how long have I prayed for this? can you not fix me?

The purpose of science is to change belief. If you believe that infertility, IVF Failure, recurrent miscarriages, prematurity, and low birth weight are 'God's will' which is not testable scientifically, you will never try to find effective treatment."  Sir Peter Medawar (Nobel laureate)

Here's to joy. Here's to hope. Here's to science. Again.

Help us God.

In other adoption news all is not a loss for our imminent move to SK. While we may have to lose our Taiwan adoption I have found a a sliver of hope with an agency in BC that works with SK to arrange adoptions from the USA. One of the USA adoption agencies they work with I think would be a great fit for us. So where to begin with all of that again.... the whole process is very daunting.

Daunting though this is; it will not stop me. Someday I will have a baby either by infertility treatment or adoption. 

Women & Infertility in the Workforce

Yesterday my local CUPE union president informed me that HR had implemented the policy that prevents women undergoing IVF from using banked sick time. Rather they must request permission from their supervisor and use their vacation time for any medical procedures. I have to travel for IVF related medical procedures. As I am only allowed 3 weeks of vacation a year it would be a long time before I accumulated any vacation time for further IVF cycles. In November I received an email from HR that explained infertility treatment is an elective procedures similar to breast augmentation and laser eye surgery. At that time I had already signed all the paperwork and paid for treatment. The union met with HR threatening a grievance if I was denied leave. I was informed by HR I would need a letter from a doctor that IVF was medically necessary and to provide a timeline. I provided the necessary doctor notes for every appointment. Unfortunately our cycle resulted in a BFN. In the mean time a policy was drafted and is now in effect. I feel like this is discrimination against women in the workforce and women with infertility. Some of the other girls I work with think I should fight this and maybe force a lawsuit. I thought about it and found legal precedent but after much thought decided I did not want to take on the extra stress. 

A Hopeful December

This is hope right here. Our 5 day blastocyst was transferred Dec 4. It's textbook quality 4AA. And now I'm living the two week wait and I cannot be more hopeful.

November was a busy month of injections, internal ultrasounds, acupuncture and driving to Calgary.

My cycle is referred to as an antagonist cycle. First I was prescribed birth-control. That made me laugh as I haven't used that in 4 years. Essentially it was used to regulate my system. Then to wait for AF. Which I was convinced would never come and made me a little nervous. It set our cycle back a few days. Then I learned that my extra layer of insulation was just perfect to pinch for injections of gonal f and luveris. (Gonal F) or Follitropin alpha works by helping to stimulate the development of eggs in the ovaries. I was initially on a low dose of 112.5 iu which was later increased to 250 iu and then decreased to 75 iu. Luveris remained the same throughout at 75 iu. (Luveris) Lutropin alpha is a fertility medication that helps follicles (eggs) in the ovaries to develop and mature. It is used in combination with Gonal-f when a women's pituitary gland does not produce enough LH. Our doctor was surprised when my poly cystic ovaries produced 20 eggs. She had been aiming for 10 so as to not incur OHSS. Ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome (OHSS) happens when your ovaries overreact to the fertility drugs you’re taking. Your ovaries may quickly swell to several times their normal size. They may also leak fluid into your abdomen and chest cavity. My right ovary was very painful when we had our trigger shot. I also was having injections of Centotide. Centotide or Cetrorelix is used to prevent premature ovulation in women undergoing ovarian stimulation. It blocks the effects of gonadotropin-releasing hormone (GnRH). GnRH controls the secretion of another hormone, called luteinizing hormone (LH), a hormone that starts ovulation (release of an egg) during the menstrual cycle. Cetrorelix allows the release of an egg to be controlled so it is released at the best time for pregnancy to occur.

After egg retrieval we learned that 15 eggs were mature. Only 14 eggs fertilized. We had elected to use Intracytoplasmic sperm injection (ICSI, pronounced ik-see) is an in vitro fertilization procedure in which a single sperm is injected directly into an egg. This was because there was a low concentration in the sample L gave and rather than thaw the sperm we has initially gave as a backup we elected to use the fresh and pay the $1500 fee.

In terms of cost this round of IVF did not break the bank. We paid $6150 for treatment plus $1500 for ICSI. And an additional $900 for freezing sperm, and $325 for freezing embryos (which we will have to pay each year if we elect to store). Drugs were surprisingly not as much as I had initially thought as our insurance was wonderful and I think I paid less than $300. This is a miracle as I saw the cost of the drugs and I am thankful for our health plans.

So 14 eggs became 7 and 6 were frozen and 1 implanted. I was not given the choice to implant more than 1. I am thankful of that as I know several people thought I should try for twins. While I love the idea of twins I watched some you-tube videos prior and followed one families journey with what they thought were going to be two ended up being three. Eeek! I was mostly not given two because they are really concerned about OHSS for me. I hope it does not get as bad as they warned it might. I was even given the option to cancel this cycle to let my body recover rather than risk OHSS.

Today I feel great so I am glad I did not elect to cancel.

In adoption news we were disheartened to learn that if we become pregnant then in all likelihood the adoption process is null. Seems very unfair.

But if it is a go and this little squeaker sticks and grows and we give birth and our adoption file is thrown out then we will know that was a closed door.

September

I work some days in a museum. The exhibit this fall commemorates 100 years since Great Britain declared war on Germany and starting in motion what we know today as the First World War.

It's September now. I recall last September our hopeful enthusiastic enlisting. I do not have clear answers but it appears that adoptions with Taiwan are at a stalemate and like the First World War that we hoped would be resolved by Christmas may in fact be a long drawn out four years if ever.

It's disappointing to say the least.

In a month my grandma turns 90. I had wanted her to live to see our adopted child. I sat with her in May as she lay in pain in her tiny twin bed. I told her of the adoption and she squeezed my hand and I think she was trying to tell me gently she may never see this child. Or that what I hope for is too good to be true.

It's 4 am now. I have insomnia when L is away working miles from home.

I'm looking forward to Christmas. I am to purchase tickets soon to fly before the prices are jacked up even higher for the Christmas rush. It's an atrocity really that flights within Canada less than one province away are more than flying internationally. It will be approximately $1500 to fly economy for the two of us. Despite this cost I am still anticipating traveling and seeing my family. I'm looking forward to seeing my only nephew who is quite grown now, a middle schooler, and is wise beyond his years.

L and I are going to give IVF another go. We had the swimmers frozen last week. Now I'm waiting for my cycle to arrive so I can in 12 days have blue dye injected into my Fallopian tubes.